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  It's 2 AM, well, 2:39 AM and I have a cold.  Cold's are miserable and the only cure is time.  Sure you can take the typical doses of Airborne, Dayquil, gallons of hot tea, etc. but really, only time and sleep will heal you.  Obviously I'm not sleeping right now, and time, well I'm waiting on that.  
  I'm a thinker.  Not a smart one (I don't think) because if I was, I wouldn't have to think so much.  My thoughts generally focus on my Jesus, the Bible, and the walk I have with Him.  He established salvation in my life so isn't it normal that my focus is now on Him?  I mean, from what I have read of Jesus and His relationship with God the Father, He was constantly thinking of the Father and His relationship with Him.  Oh, and He (Jesus) also thought about His relationship with His disciples.  He loved them.  He gave His life for them.  
  See, I turned to Jesus to change my life.  I wanted what He promised when He said that I could have life and have it more abundantly.  I wanted the empty space in my life to be filled.  You know, that dark hole that tells you, "If I could only get that one thing that would make me happy."  Then, when you get that one thing,  you find out your not any happier and that dark hole is still there.  I also wanted a different heart.  Meaning, I wanted to act differently.  No, not act, I wanted (and want) to be different!  
  So, I looked for Jesus.  I looked and looked and finally found Him.  Wait, ha, hold on a second, He found me.  I don't think I would have ever found Him had He not shown Himself to me.  Does that make sense?  Look at it this way, Jesus once said to let the little children come to him.  He said that those who enter the Kingdom of Heaven had to be like a child.  He also said seek and you will find.  Hold on Ryan, you just said that you didn't find Jesus.  Well, yes and no.  I did find Jesus, but only because He let me.  You know how you play hide and seek with little kids?  You're hiding and they are looking for you...but they're not finding you!  You have to start giving them hints and usually, you have to almost just step out of your hiding place in order for that child to "find" you.  See, I was so blind in my own sins (Ephesians says that we were dead in our sins) I couldn't have seen Jesus though I wanted to.    Now, my eyes are getting heavy.  I've got to try and kick this cold and get some sleep.  Friends, I hope you sleep well. Good night.